If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking - James 1 v 5, NLT
Praying for wisdom.
I have been praying for wisdom. On my knees, I have been. Eyes closed, hands bowed, I have been. Tears streaming down my face. Ashamed of my past actions but proud of how I made it. That I am here now repenting in my present, eyes closed, hands bowed, I have been asking God for wisdom.
For the Lord gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding - Proverbs 2 v 6 NIV
Life has felt pretty darn hard. Haven’t known how to manage myself, my life, my life with my girl. Honor her and honor God. Honor my path. Who am I meant to be? I don’t even know how to grow the money he has given me. How to love? Patience, kindness, not easily angered, not counting wrongs. I have tried and failed. Living purely? Forget it. I have even given up on trying on some things. But God has lately been reminding me, “You are my son, a prodigal son; I still want you; you are still worthy” So, on my knees, eyes closed, hands bowed, I have been. Seeking wisdom. He says he gives to those who ask, so on my knees, I have been..asking.
By wisdom, a house is built, and through understanding, it is established; through knowledge, its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures - Proverbs 24 vs 3-4 NIV
I look around; even though it’s been a battle, I am grateful. I am doing better than Dad. At my age, Dad was struggling harder than I am. That’s all that matters. Knowing that my children won’t have to face the same pain. I am going to be courageous for them. All the curses I am breaking. Changing the tempo and temper I grew up on, letting God make me gentle like his voice in Elijah’s ear.
After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper - 1 Kings 19:11-13 NIV
Not perfect. But on my knees, eyes closed, hands bowed, I have been asking for wisdom. Help me manage this life. Help me tend your garden—the kingdom you have given me. I don’t want to be mad anymore; I don’t want anger and negative energy in my life, in how I love and how I care. I just want your grace, your joy, and your infinite wisdom to be the light unto my path. Silence the noises in my head, and bring a new peace I don’t deserve. On my knees, I have been. Eyes closed, hands bowed, I have been. For I know…
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does
not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres - 1 Corinthians 13 v 4-8 NIV
To Him be glory forever. Amen.
With love,
Kudakwashe
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